Routine Both Scares Me and Secures Me

Routine both scares me and secures me.

It scares me because routine has a habit of numbing the mind. When we go through our usual tasks, our minds disengage. We aren’t as connected and time passes quickly. All of a sudden, you come to and realize you haven’t been paying attention for several minutes. Routine makes life go by too quickly. Routine closes my eyes and deadens my senses.

But routine also does the silent work of putting down deep roots when I’m not looking. The routine of daily life, of work and play and preparation and cleaning up, lays a foundation of security that brings rest to my soul. And, though I might not observe how this everyday stuff accomplishes this, all I need is a break and a return from this routine to understand how routine makes me feel at home.

So routine keeps me slightly uncomfortable—scaring me with the brevity of my time here but giving me glimpses of what it feels like to belong somewhere. This discomfort makes me look forward to a future where time is not something to be feared (in eternity will we even notice it?) and security will not be synonymous with same old. Instead, excitement and home will be intertwined into something new and ancient at the same time.

*Written as a response to the Five Minute Friday prompt

2 thoughts on “Routine Both Scares Me and Secures Me

  1. AndréaLaneWrites

    Wow. Tatyana that is beautiful, and way deeper than my mind was able to go so early this morning. The disengaging routine of life can be so off putting, like when you get in the car and next thing you know you are home but you can’t really remember the drive. Eeek. This is definitely reminding me to pay extra attention to the moments where I tend to turn on auto-pilot and live in the moment, particularly with my kids. This time is precious and I’ll never get today back. Thanks for sharing today, I can’t wait to check out more of your posts!

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    1. tclaytor Post author

      Thank you! To be honest, I wrote it last night! My brain isn’t so clear in the morning either.
      I need to remind myself daily to live intentionally and not just get my tasks done. Every moment is a gift!

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