Hidden Gifts: One Woman’s Journey Toward Discovering Her Calling

In Elizabeth Kostova’s latest novel The Shadow Land, the protagonist Alexandra embarks upon a journey begun by a chance encounter with a family with a tragic history. Her acquaintance with elderly family member Stoyan Lazarov reveals the impact the brutal post-World-War-II communist regime of Bulgaria had on this man. Stoyan began life as a violin prodigy who, through an unlucky circumstance, was sent to a harsh labor camp — not once, but multiple times. Although he survived and even succeeded in protecting his talented hands, in the end, his spirit was broken and his musical career destroyed.

His talent was a gift to the world — a gift that was stolen by an oppressive government who was protecting their own interests. This selfishness awakens anger in the reader who grieves the loss of this prodigious talent and moves us to wonder how many geniuses have been destroyed by similar situations. It also makes us wonder how many gifts have been stolen by far less threatening circumstances. What if talents have been hidden or diminished just because we just didn’t believe we could or shouldn’t use our gifts?

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I had an unusual upbringing. My mother died when I was young, and I was raised by my father. He spoke to me as an equal, encouraged me to pursue my dreams, and endlessly debated with me on different topics as diverse as government structure and TV show plots. I did not see this as unusual, and because of it, I truly believed that I was capable of accomplishing great things. In addition, I read a wide variety of great literature that took me on adventures of great daring and heroic feats. I was King Arthur pulling the sword from the stone, clever Bilbo hiding his discovered treasure, or bold Beowulf slaughtering Grendel. It never bothered me that most of my heroes were men. I saw myself in them and believed I could do those things as well. It never occurred to me that fulfilling a calling might be different as a woman.

In college, I became a Christian. It was an answer to the longings of my heart. Finally, a place where the adventures mean something — an overarching theme that makes sense of it all. I was excited to begin my own adventure, thinking initially of becoming a tribal missionary. It wasn’t long into my journey that I realized that there was an aspect I hadn’t considered — that of being a woman.

When I was younger, I felt certain I would be a writer and speaker. When I became a Christian, I wasn’t so sure how this would work. As women, and Christian women, our dreams are often riddled with the expectations of those around us. The church often tells us that our jobs are home and children. What if we don’t fit into that mold though? What if we’re single or childless? Or what if we are married and have children, but still have a calling on our lives?

Our American culture isn’t much better. Women are pressured to be beautiful, sexy, and strong. Where the church may seem to tell us our impact is limited, the world seems to lay the burden of it all on our shoulders. Added to this are the expectations of family and responsibilities — and somewhere in the midst of all these voices, we can no longer hear God’s voice to us individually, as people and not just women.

While I would hardly consider myself a person of prodigious talent like the character Lazarov, I too have something unique to offer the world which is more than my progeny and support. I too have a talent for which I am responsible. While the term talent in the parable of the talents (Matthew 25:14-30) is probably not meant to be interpreted so literally as actual talent, I still find the word serendipitous. We too have been entrusted with gifts and an expectation that we will do something with it. Hiding it because of the expectations of others will not make the hiding any more acceptable. Instead, I have a responsibility to work with the gift that is given me —  to multiply my talent.

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